UNTITLED 2

又来半夜打卡。

理不清的信息，

解不开的迷题。

是错失的良机，

还是迷的假象？

复数的事件叠加浑浊了思考，分不清方向。

唯有逐一地掀开迷雾才有办法地看清出路。

久违的失眠

没事，就刷刷存在感。

以及感觉好多事情发生的越来越近

真的是时候顾好自己的身体了。

Same insomnia 

Same bad decision of evening coffee 

Same thoughts that run through my head 

And same progress 

How long more do I need to break this unending loop?

在台上那卖弄英姿的舞步，口齿伶俐的他

当只为台下那朵小花表演时，却变成了硬直的五步，口吃零力。

何其可笑。

IT'S NOT OVER.

The game is still on. 

don't care.

Never been in this much threat before.

It might be real ending. it might be just delusional. 

Regardless which side of the truth it is, 

don't care. 

Before im getting the anwser, 

I need to cast aside all the speculations. 

I need to ignore what other thinks. 

I need to avoid assumptions. 

Just don't care, and keep pressing on. 

with a faster pace, 

a better objective, 

and a clearer intention. 

Until I get a solid anwser, before the time runs up. 

Deep down im afraid of fighting a losing war, 

but im even afraid of losing a war that I did not fight. 

So don't care anymore. 

the usual Sunday night insomnia pattern

Except more sheets are running through my head.

How long am i going to stay stagnant before times is running out. 

so it was chocolate.

🤔

fix it.

Too timid to socialize

Or too proud to talk with others?

It's probably not a lock down

A soft reset, a second chance,or a timeout, whatever people likes to call.

The real question is how are we going to utilise them? How should i?

Sinking deep

Deeper than I could think of.
Would I still able to pull out from it if shit goes sour?

Am too afraid to know

Is this dream?

If it is, just let me sleep a`lil longer..

You won't.

It's a leap of faith.

Did rock climbing the other day, can't even go through half of the track.

Guess I still couldn't carry my own weight..

Nope.

Too late.

Or is it?

Welp.

I'm not  entirely  sure  whether I'm  making  good  progress  or hardly scratching the surface, 

One  thing  I darn  sure is that it's  definitely  not  on  the same spot as before.

Now how much more I could  push myself?

So,

How long  are you going to stand  right there?

UNTITLED

Not a usual way how I wanted to blog  stuff : phrase sparked in my head, blurt it out, hit publish.

There's something  I wanted  to tell  but no  magic  phrase  shows  up this time  round.

Guess  I would just  leave the mixed  expression  here, until  i figure  shits  out.

For now, I would  just  keep this as :

UNTITLED.

因为我太习惯站在远出瞭望了