Same insomnia 

Same bad decision of evening coffee 

Same thoughts that run through my head 

And same progress 

How long more do I need to break this unending loop?

在台上那卖弄英姿的舞步，口齿伶俐的他

当只为台下那朵小花表演时，却变成了硬直的五步，口吃零力。

何其可笑。

IT'S NOT OVER.

The game is still on. 

don't care.

Never been in this much threat before.

It might be real ending. it might be just delusional. 

Regardless which side of the truth it is, 

don't care. 

Before im getting the anwser, 

I need to cast aside all the speculations. 

I need to ignore what other thinks. 

I need to avoid assumptions. 

Just don't care, and keep pressing on. 

with a faster pace, 

a better objective, 

and a clearer intention. 

Until I get a solid anwser, before the time runs up. 

Deep down im afraid of fighting a losing war, 

but im even afraid of losing a war that I did not fight. 

So don't care anymore. 

the usual Sunday night insomnia pattern

Except more sheets are running through my head.

How long am i going to stay stagnant before times is running out. 

so it was chocolate.

🤔

fix it.